Well... It's pretty much final.  I'm officially single again...

I like to sit back and think about how this could have gone differently... and I'm just glad it went legally as painlessly as possible.  We decided to drop the lawyers and agree on terms, and then we went to the courthouse and filed em, signed the paperwork and chose the days to go to the classes for divorcing parents.  And despite knowing most of the stuff the guy was trying to get across, I don't regret going... It really only reaffirmed my desire to be a good father and a GREAT dad.  Not only that, but the class was still informative somehow.  

I've managed to get joint legal of my little girl, and I take advantage of the visiting days to the fullest I like to think.  I never pass up an opportunity to have her for a day, or babysit.  And I'm definitely glad we could work out a good schedule so that Izzy doesn't have to see one parent less than the other.  It's not going to be easy for her, but I hope it's easier for her than it was for myself growing up.

I'm also glad that I've got such a great support network of friends to help me out.  Keep me company during my loneliness, keep me laughing when I'm down, and to keep my spirits when some seriously fucked up shit is going on. I owe a LOT to my friends, and I hope that someday I can repay that kindness.

Now I just need to focus on getting back into my artistic groove, expand upon my talent and just have fun with art again... Not just look at it every day, but make some.  I really regret falling behind on my art, it really sucks.  Especially when you have so much fucking emotion to fuel the artistic spirit but that very same emotion is also demotivating...

I dunno.  I just to kick myself into gear again.